I dreamed about my mama last night, this was our conversation,
“Angel, you showed us all…”
‘Showed you all what?’
“How to own yourself…”
‘Not really, I wasn’t doing that at all. I was simply living my life the way I wanted to, because I saw so many of you trying to do it all, all at one time and that didn’t work for me. I knew I had to be a bit more methodical and patient.’
‘Well, you did. We talk about you all the time.”
‘Who does?’
“All of us. We were all so sure we knew the answers for all of you. We thought if you would only do what we said, how we said it, then your life would be perfect. Most of them tried to do it our way and made royal messes of their lives. But you always went your own way and did your own thing and look at you now.”
‘Well, it ain’t all that special. I simply have a personality quirk that wouldn’t allow me to try to be like anyone else. However, I want you to know that I admire and looked up to all of you and what you stood for. Those who went before me certainly paved the way. Especially you, mama you never really tried to make me be anything. You simply loved me and were proud of me even when I was goofy. It’s just that God made me unable to allow any voice to lead me except the one he gave me. And the one thing I have always understood is that I don’t really have the ability to make anything happen, but if I’m faithful and patient I can allow everything to happen.’
“My child my Angel, that is exactly what I mean.”
‘Oh…’
“Angel..”
‘Ma’am’
“It’s just the beginning…”
‘I know…’
Love and Blessings,
Angelia
IS NO NOT CLEAR ENOUGH FOR YOU
Available December 1, 2007
