It seems that every woman I know or talk to is tired…yes tired…tired of someone, something or like me just flat out tired, physically and I have no one to blame but me and my desire to be all things to all people…gasp…there I said…and I will say that I am better than I was…
I am over fifty, have been married over thirty years, been working give or take for thirty five years, my youngest child is almost twenty-five and my eldest is going on thirty-one…I have a very good job, and earn a bit of money from my books, with the potential to earn more, if only I weren’t so tired…
I am sure by now you want to know why I am tired…
Well there are a plethora of reasons….I get up weekdays at 4:30 in order to be to work by 6, so that I can have Fridays off…to write and do book stuff…however, I also feel that all meals are my responsibility and to make sure the house is ummm, relatively clean is on me…no one has told me to be this way…my man is an amazing cook, but why should he…food is done when he walks in the door…he also knows how to clean up, but ummm why should he, see above…also, I feel I should be on every set…someone needs something done, a ride somewhere…yada yada yada…call me I am yours…tired…
And when I am not doing those things, I am thinking, planning or doing something to make something else happen…tired…and the funny thing is I am better than I was, but I need to get better…
Here are my real priorities, Love and serve God, love my man, work for the money I am paid, do the thing that feed my soul, (writing and promoting my work, supporting other authors) do as much as I can for others without it being to my own detriment…cook if I feel like it, pay someone to do some of this cleaning…sit for as long as I want to and need to…sleep eight hours…and say no when I really, really, really don’t want to do something and keep my mouth shut when no one even asks me to do something…sounds excellent, Pray for me because I am bound to slip up…
BE THE PEACE YOU SEEK~
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