I have a bad habit, though many consider it a loving habit,
It is not good…always,
I have a tendency to always place the needs of those I love before mine,
Started when I was a young girl,
Felt that if I were good and did the right thing,
It would make the craziness surrounding me easier,
It actually did to a certain extent,
But didn’t change a thing,
People still did what they wanted to,
How they wanted to,
When they wanted to,
I carried that into marriage and motherhood,
Many times I felt like the marriage was mine to work on,
And I could make it work,
All by my Amazonian self,
That worked too, for awhile,
Fortunately with that when I got tired,
My man recognized and allowed me to not do as much,
Guess he was waiting for me to let some things go…
Then I became a mama,
Lord my goal was the be the best mama on the planet,
And I was a good one,
However, I recognize that I was too much of a fixer,
Standing in the way as a cushion for some of the bumps that I should have allowed them to take,
As such they are NOW learning that the ground is mighty hard,
And that when we fall it hurts, like a you know what…
And that is good…
Because I learned, well I am learning that loving someone does not mean,
Taking on their burdens, or trying to fix 'em...
That men and women are formed from their trials and that sometimes,
Every now and then,
Amazons need to just chill,
And self-protect!
BE BLESSED!
Angelia
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