Conversations I have or had, constantly, play in my head…
One such conversation occurred a couple years ago,
With someone I love dearly,
She is a bit older than I,
I was at a transforming stage, (one of many in a chameleon’s life)
My kids were newly grown,
I was writing, enjoying being an empty nester,
Renewing my love with my love,
And I guess it was oozing from my pores,
So she asked me,
Why are you so damn happy!
I turned to her asking, why are you so damn unhappy!
Our eyes watered and she said,
‘Because I’m not where I want to be, doing what I want to do…’
I am not sure what she wanted me to say, but what I said was this,
“Then that’s the problem, if where you are isn’t where you want to be, then,
You are so consumed with that, you can't enjoy where you might end up.”
Huh?
Simple, really,
If one is bogged down in regrets or self-pity about where they are,
Or where they think they should be, there is a good chance they aren’t going anywhere,
That kind of stuff is what keeps us bound, with mental albatrosses around our neck…
She looked at me in surprise, I hadn’t said what she wanted,
But I wasn’t focused on that, because sometimes we have to give what’s needed,
The straightness…
Finally, she said,
“You right, I spend so much time waiting for my ship to come in…”
“Well, you got to stop that, and hop on a variety of ships until you find the one that’s sailing right, and from that you get a journey, and no one, not even you can sit around thinking, ‘I missed the boat.”
She looked at me like the nut, she knew me to be,
Then we both giggled, pleased at that moment with where we were at!
Love You Madly!
Angelia
Schae’s Story: A Woman’s Transformation
12/01/2008
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