MASOCHISTIC MARTYRDOM~

When 2010 started I knew for a variety of reasons it would be an awesome year,
Of course though I was born with that veil thing,
I didn’t really know how,
Well let me say, WHEW,
It has been most BLESSED,
But I kid you not the blessings all seemed to come as result of a storm,
And I am in appreciation,
There is so much baggage that I have carried for so long,
One of my things has always been to be best,
Best daughter,
Best student,
Best wife,
Best mother,
Best mentor, et al.
Haa haa haa~
All I can say is that I have been the best I can be,
But what I had to realize is that being the best anything doesn’t involve masochism,
Or martyrdom,
And I kid you not,
I have taken on being,
A masochistic martyr to be sure,
As soon as something needed doing,
My hand went up,
Even when I really didn’t want to do,
And knew (that born with a veil thing),
Without a shadow of a doubt how it would work itself out,
Much like this,
If you see a guy standing on the side of the road with a sign that says;
‘Will work for food’
And you give him five dollars and drive off,
With him thanking you profusely,
However, you know that in some cases,
If you had actually said,
Well I need my car washed, my shoes shined,
Or some such,
There is a good chance he would have looked at you as though you,
Were nuts,
Because regardless of what the sign said,
He wanted you to just give him the damn money and go on your way,
Same is true when someone says,
Thank you, I appreciate it but, I really want you to do it or say it how I want you to do it or say it, otherwise…
I love you, but…if you can be how I want you to be then I don’t love you nearly as much as all that…
Please do this thing for me, but….
You get where I am going with this,
Sometimes,
We simply have to drive on by,
And not do a thing if it isn’t what is best for all parties concerned,
Because to do that thing,
And feel pained is not the business,
And I tell you there is no blessing at all in,
Masochistic Martyrdom,
To be sure~

BE THE PEACE YOU SEEK~
angelia