TRUST ISSUES

Trusting is hard, for a lot of people it is impossible,
That is why many people shy away from religion,
Because it demands trust of the highest order,
And the trust has to be there even when things are going bad,
You simply have to believe and know that the storm will past,
As my pastor said last night, ‘At some point we have to stop wrestling with God and know that we can just hold on, cling to Him…’
That is really easy for me,
Because my faith has took me through some things,
Trust that!
Now trust in a person is of a different order,
Particularly for those of us who were raised to be fierce,
Told we don’t need nobody,
Can trust nobody,
We can do it all, relying on ourselves,
Whew…that can be so damned tiring, Trust That!
I am married to a strong, silent, loving man,
And I know without him having to tell me,
Though he does, occasionally,
I can be a handful,
And for years I relied on me,
Thought it was my responsibility to do it,
All, Superwoman for real,
Shoot, I could have a career,
Get a degree or two, while handling,
A strong marriage,
Super kids,
A clean house and cook like a chef,
Yeah child, mama was a bad mama jama,
But one day I realized how tired I was and he told me,
‘Baby, you don’t have to do all that, you have chosen to …”
I looked at him like he was freebasing,
He smiled saying,
‘Trust me…”
I was too tired to force the issue,
I was at the if it don’t fit don’t force it juncture,
So I gave into it,
Feeling it was no big deal, because I already trusted him… right?
Umm hmm,
But I learned to and I do,
And you know what the world still turns,
And I am free to be me and do the things that please me,
Because I can trust that what I don’t handle,
He has already got it covered,
Damn…that’s nice, real nice…


Love Peace and Blessings
angelia

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